Where is this Road going?

Today is a rough day.  Things are completely different from where I thought we’d be now back in April.  I thought I’d be enjoying spending more one of one time with my little monkey.  Getting to work on speech with him while he can actually have quietness in the house.  In April, I was excited at the new fall schedule coming.  Noah’s at school all day, starting in Kinder, which was going to be great for him.  Reagan gets to go to PreK 1/2 day M-F, so she gets much needed craft time, reading, writing, and friend making time.  She’s wanted and need that since last year.  It was going to be such a glorious road. 
Why do these surrounding not seem so glorious?  Although I’m seeming to treasure the daily gifts from God more and more, I’m not really happy in his plan right now.  It feels too hard.  Too much for me.  But when I look back at other trials, didn’t they all seem that way.  They were too overwhelming, too hard, too much for us.  Hadn’t we been through enough.  Close family deaths, many job losses, almost divorce, marriage trials, children with disabilities, money struggles.  But everyone goes through many and these things and more.  Why am I different, why should I be secluded?  Because although we may not understand his plan, it is his plan.  And at least someone is in control.  That’s comforting.  For how can we be Christlike when we do not suffer as He suffered for us.  He tells us, we will suffer with him.  And I’m thankful for that.  That there’s a reason for my suffering.  That I’m in all of this for a purpose.  That, and that someday I'll be celebrating with Him.